I don't know how to put this in words exactly... So, I'm gonna ramble until I feel satisfied with the way I'm about to describe all my emotions.

I'm disappointed.
And i am so fucking tired of feeling disappointed.
So fucking fed up of feeling unimportant and unappreciated.
Too damn fucking sick of overthinking.
I just wish that I've never met you in the first place. In the first fucking place.

Maybe i'm unappreciative, maybe i expect too much from you because I'd give you so much more.
At the end of the day, i just feel empty. Somehow i feel like I always end up doing what you like. We never get to do what I like. And if there is a rare chance when you do what I like, you'll just complain about how boring it is, how tired you are, how you never want to do any of those things again.
Do you have any fucking idea how that makes me feel?
Do you have any clue how pressured that makes me feel when i go out with you??
It's like I'm boring, like you just don't appreciate my company, like if you had the choice, you'd do something else more fun with someone else.

Well, isn't that just fantastic???

I hate this. I hate this so much. I just don't want to give a shit or care anymore. I just want to stop talking to you. Stop seeing you. Then all of this will go away. Then i won't feel so small and empty anymore.

i just don't want you anymore.